ABOUT ME
I am a wife and a mother of two boys, one college age and
one high school age. My boys are the light of my life. We live in Arizona in a
seeming normal neighborhood. We raised our kids in a traditional fashion, I was
a stay at mom and my husband worked to support the family. We wanted it that
way so that at least one of us was always home with them. I was your average
everyday mom who volunteered at their schools, went on field trips, took them
to little league and football practices. I loved every minute of it and will
never regret quitting my job to raise my kids. I will always consider myself a
lucky woman to have a husband who could give that gift to us.
My son is like yours... when he was born he was a beautiful
baby boy with big brown eyes with long lush eyelashes... in grade school he was
ambitious, insightful and smart... in high school he was popular, funny and
friendly. He loves sports his friends and his family.
He and I have a special connection. I can feel his anguish
and his pain. He doesn’t want to live this way, he’s doesn’t want that life.
We have been going through life trending through (what feels
like) dense fog trying to find our way
out of this for the past 7 years. Out of the seven years he’s been doing drugs
this past year from 2014 to 2015 our current year to date are the only times he
has attempted to get clean. From 2008 to 2014 he would not dare admit he was a drug
addict or had a problem using drugs. In his eyes he was not abusing drugs he
was using them for recreational prepossess. Why not he had the prefect enabler
in his life, his girlfriend and she in him. It wasn’t until he saw a psychiatrist
in July of 2014 did he finally realize or maybe he just gained the strength to finally
admit he was sick and that he was a drug addict. He is currently battling his
drug addiction. It’s been hard UPHILL struggle so far and he’s relapsed a few
time already. BUT he is still in ring fighting. Thanks to GOD!
When you have a child you never think something like this could happen to your family. You never could imagine that this amazing soul would carry so much hatred for them self, do things you never thought they would ever do. Abuse their bodies in such a way that they could kill themselves.
When you have a child you never think something like this could happen to your family. You never could imagine that this amazing soul would carry so much hatred for them self, do things you never thought they would ever do. Abuse their bodies in such a way that they could kill themselves.
I'm not sure where this road is going, I guess time will tell.
LOVE ;
LOVE ;
Some of my favorite pictures
Junior & Al
Freshman year in College
Clean and sober 60 day chip, 2014
handsfulloftears@gmail.com
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